1.25.2011

7 weeks from Kollyns' due date!!!

Pre-pregnancy I was one of the girls that actually felt bad for pregnant people.  I would see a pregnant woman and think ‘poor thing, she has to walk around with that big belly all the time…I know it has to be so uncomfortable and awkward’… Before I got pregnant I’m even guilty of fearing pregnancy and how it would change my body and my mental state…I assumed I would become an insecure crazy girl, when actually it had the opposite effect on me (now I realize how selfish those thoughts are, and I’m ashamed that they even crossed my mind).  So I thought pregnancy would turn me into a whiner.  I figured I would be one that would constantly complain and make Devin wait on me hand & foot.  Ha.  Lucky for him, I’ve had the easiest pregnancy ever with no complications so far (thank the Lord) and I haven’t been able to pester him one bit.  Pregnancy has surprised me in so many ways.  I didn’t realize how truly beautiful and wonderful it is until I experienced it for myself.  I’ve developed a newfound respect for my body and what it is capable of.  I look at myself in a completely different light...and I feel so blessed that God has allowed me to carry this child and bond with her over the past 8 months.  When I read Psalm 139:13-14 ‘For You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my Mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made’…it really reveals how much of a gift it is to have this perfect little girl being created inside of me, and I am so thankful.  We have passed the 33 week mark and we’re sliding into 34 with under 7 weeks to go.  It finally feels like we’re getting somewhere…yet time is slowing down for some reason!  Probably because I’m getting so anxious to hold her, and love on her, and take care of her and kiss her sweet face.  Not that the belly isn’t a constant reminder of my little bringer of joy that’s soon to come…but she never lets me forget she’s in there.  She rolls, kicks, and hiccups to no end.  Every evening when I get home from the gym I sit back on the sofa and roll up my shirt because I know she’s getting ready to show mommy and daddy that she can get a good workout in too each day!  It is so amazing to watch her movements because they seem so strong and forceful!  Which I LOVE!  They are actually starting to hurt at times…but as long as she’s enjoying herself in my tummy I’m a happy mommy.  But as much as I’ve loved being pregnant and experiencing this amazing journey, I’m sure it doesn't compare to the day we get to FINALLY meet our sweet girl!